Wow, it has been a long time since I posted!
Well I had a happy, healthy baby boy~ All is well!
I am going to get my RI treatment in October (had to wait until after I had the baby) and it should be a piece of cake. What is that anyways?! A pill!! I had to swallow, accept and adjust to finding out I had cancer ... had my whole thyroid removed while pregnant and then gave birth all in like 6 months.. I think I can handle a pill! I am going away when I get it. I am thinking a few nights with some close friends and or family to a casino. Why not! Maybe the radioactive iodine will charge up the winning mechanism in the slot machine and I will win!! You never know :)
Since having cancer, my mind has been racing a mile a minute. I am making lists of things I want to buy and buying them, writing in a journal to record my words, recipes and other things I want them to know (for my kids). I have been taking a ton of pictures, and even letting more of me be taken (I HATE my picture taken..). I have this new sense of urgency for my life. I guess brushing so close to death with having cancer does that. I realized that life is so fragile. The real essence of the meaning of life for most has become clouded with superficial and insecure worries. I have this new sense of confidence, like I know a deeper meaning to life now. I feel like I have a second chance, a second chance is something many people do not get. For millions of people, finding out they had cancer was too late. There was no second chance. I have one!! Hallelujah!! :) People die every day, we all have an expiration date. Life will end for every one of us. The human body is just a flesh and blood mortal vessel for the immortal soul. I have little boys who need me, they need their Mommy. I am so happy, and GREATFUL for a second freaking chance that I don't give a rats ass about the side effects of the meds, the treatments, the bloodwork, the huge scar on my neck.. yadda, yadda.. I have a second chance at life!!! It is easy to complain about things and worry about idiotic stuff.. Seek out the beauty in a second chance at life if you survived cancer.
I'll update again when I have my RI treatment :)
... Seriously, think about the good, focus on the good... ;)
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